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Saturday, August 18th, 2007
12:59 am	*whispers* oh my god... oh...oh god. i....well, i did it. I did it!! I finished my ridiculous hellspawn paper!! hahahahaha! i think it may have broken my mind, but it's DONE. I have mixed feelings about its quality, but at this point, I hardly care. (until i get the reply from my advisor and potentially spend a day in tears) wow. i feel completely pumped but also strangely melancholy. i'm sitting out on my fire escape stealing the neighbour's wireless and it's so chilly. my god, it's the end of summer. what happened? where did my time go? i'll be coming back to the sault in a couple of short weeks...leaving all of my awesome friends behind here...i really like guelph. it sort of feels like this place should be home now. it's a brilliant little city, i think. Current Mood: relieved (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 11th, 2007
3:14 am	Shh. "There remains the inescapable truth about perception: the positivity of all experience at every moment of it. As John Cage has insisted, 'there is no such thing as silence. Something is always happening that makes a sound.' (Cage has described how, even in a soundless chamber, he still heard at least two things: his heartbeat and the coursing of the blood in his head). Similarly, there is no such thing as empty space. As long as a human eye is looking there is always something to see. To look at something that's 'empty' is still to be looking, still to be seeing something — if only the ghosts of one's own expectations." --Susan Sontag, The Aesthetics of Silence hm, I always thought that this was a nice way of looking at things. 22 More Pages to Go. Current Mood: tired (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 10th, 2007
10:47 pm	blink-a blink-a i AM alive. i think? ...wait....oh, yes. i am. school is crazy. i might die before april is over. no guarantees! i think i have a funny feeling...a real, genuine funny feeling...down in the pit of my stomach...for someone... it's scary and more than a little exciting i think that maybe, maybe he has one for me too i went to toronto last night to see a play and go for dinner i didn't have time to see anyone which made me bummed but i had a good time which made me happy i miss toronto and everybody in/around it. a LOT. Current Mood: nostalgic (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 4th, 2007
3:12 am	love me, like me, come ahead and fight me hahaha! This has turned out to be a pretty good winter break. This city is so hilarious. Come home for 3 weeks and find out/see/hear stuff about everybody you've ever known, EVER. I've heard more about people I couldn't care less about this break than I have in years, probably. The horrible-yet-delicious part is that a lot of the news is mediocre-to-bad. Take, for example, some people I used to sort of resent in highschool. Now, these people were never anything but nice to me and I was never anything but nice to them. My PROBLEM was that a large clique of them would all congeal together during spare period and copy assignments off of one another and the "smart girl" in the group. As a result, they more or less breezed through highschool all nicey-nice, while I and many others worked our butts off independently to get through. Where are they now, you ask? Most of them couldn't cut it in University, it turns out! (surprise surprise) And are now either doing shit-all, or compromising their dreams for something less. (What? Our graduating class wasn't ACTUALLY 80% composed of future doctors? GASP, I SAY!) (I know it's mean to be satisfied with the negative things afflicting other people, but fuck you. I can be a bitch if I want to. I'll deal with the karma as it comes. I already got bumped by a car door after I laughed at one particular girl!) I saw my one-time "mortal enemy" in the mall today (aka. trollbeast riddled with syphillis) I pretended I didn't know who she was but it was interesting to see her. I also found out that a certain somebody is still exactly where I left him, more or less. How......disappointing for him and validating for me. Aside from this vindictiveness!...I've seen a bunch of old friends (people I haven't seen in years), reconnected with other friends, partied, was rescued by a chivalrous ex (i wish they could all be as wonderful as he is), hung out with my funny parents, spent lots of time with my puppy, slept and ate to excess, relaxed, and nerded out. I don't want to go back to schoooool! xoxo miss you Current Mood: satisfied Current Music: garbage - i think i'm paranoid (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, December 1st, 2006
2:10 pm	Heart Warmies So I taught my last seminar of the semester today...and you want to know what my students did? They applauded me! And then a bunch of them came up to me afterwards to tell me how much they liked my seminar. One girl even gave me a giant hug. How adorable and encouraging is that?? ( It must be because I brought them TimBits...;) ) So now I am officially done class. I do, however, still have a couple of assignments to finish up and I still have to mark a final exam. I can't wait to go home for Christmas! LOVE TO EVERYONE! Current Mood: touched Current Music: a long flight - wintersleep (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 11th, 2006
5:21 pm	A&AH Awards So, I was kindly reminded last night by a certain Ashley Andrews that the Art and Art History Awards are creeping up around this time of year. (To be held on the 23rd, or so the story goes.) Miss Andrews also pointed my attention to this: http://www.fasa.ca/blog/award-winners Which really surprised me! I'd really like to go to this and see everybody again and pick up whatever it is I've won. DAMN living in Guelph! I miss everybody. Current Mood: calm (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 10th, 2006
10:56 pm	My weekend So my Thanksgiving weekend was pretty great! My parents (and my adorable puppy dog) came and picked up my brother, his girlfriend, and I in Guelph and drove us to Dorchester (near London) to stay at my aunt and uncle's place for a totally laid back weekend. * We watched the awe-inspiring 15 minute long Dorchester Thanksgiving Day parade...the highlight of which was a pickup truck with a giant papier-mache pig in the back. * We then went apple-picking--which is so clearly not something geared towards someone my age--but, so help me Lord, I was completely excited when the "Apple Land Apple Train" pulled up with its happy conductor ready to take me off on a sparkling apple-picking journey! So, picture me: grinning like an idiot, clutching my large wooden bushel basket, skipping towards the train, practically 'facing' little children in my excitement to score the best apple pickin' trees! When that train pulled out of the station, around the bend, and into the orchard to a place where we could pick nine--count 'em: NINE--unique types of apples...with the sun shining in my face and a warm fall breeze ruffling my hair...I was completely content. I picked a metric buttload of apples (I believe that was the official measurement,) consumed enough apple to feel unwell, AND got to feed a sheep at the petting zoo. ...Oh yes. You better believe I shoved my way past all the 6-year-olds so I could pet the animals. In fact, I couldn't contain a smug little smile as I nonchalantly reached over the fence and "petted" to my heart's content while the whiny little bastards stared enviously, and vainly attempted to shove their chubby little arms through to the animals juuuuust beyond their fingertips. Take that you little shits! In the end I made caramel apples. Which were delicious but fucking hard to eat. I also plan on making a bunch of apple crisp. So, you know...if you're in the neighbourhood, I can crisp you up! * Another golden highlight was the Dorchester carnival: a classic smalltown fair with a few staple rides (bumper cars, the scrambler, etc.,) crooked games, and classic fair food. Pat, Fiona and I rode a couple of rides, then spent the rest of our time eating cotton candy and wasting money winning cheaply-made stuffed animals. I managed to win a medium-sized penguin from the magnetic "fishing" game as well as a small SpongeBob Squarepants plushie from the classic "throw darts at balloons" game! HOWEVER the best part of all was how I flirted with a disgusting toothless carny to score an amazing LARGE STUFFED COW. Italy taught me well! It all began with his "Well look at YOU with your cute dimples!" and I just exploited it from there; paying $5 to play the ultra-rigged "softball into the wooden basket" game and scoring a prize which normally would have cost somewhere around the $20 range. (Here's a tip: the only way you can win that game is by bouncing the ball off of the rim into the basket...though usually carnies call that "cheating.")...my carny was a huge pervert, so it was totally easy to get him to overlook the fact that I "cheated" to win! (AND I got what I wanted without succumbing to his request that I "jump up and down" for him. GROSSSSSSSSS!!!!!) hahahaha. So hilarious. so disgusting! Honourable mention goes to my brother for SOMEHOW scoring a Radioactive Man plushie from one of those impossible to win Claw Games. (you know the type, you move the claw around, push a button and it's supposed to retrieve a toy for you but the claws have no strength of grip in them at all in any way? Think Otto trying to get the lobster harmonica.) Yeah! Somehow it worked this time which was awesome; but the very "awesome" fact that he won was overshadowed by my brother's reaction which went something along the lines of: "FUCKING YEAHHHHH! HOLY SHIT YESSSSSSSSSS!" in front of a group of small children. Sigh: those long-forgotten days of lost innocence... *Aside from that, I ate waaay to fucking much, did absolutely no work, and relaxed with movies and family. I love Thanksgiving. I hope yours went just as well as mine! Current Mood: chipper (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 27th, 2006
10:40 pm	SMELL YA LATER, STINKTOWN! WOOOO! Italy! Tomorrow! For 5 Weeks! How excited am I? Away from this city and everybody in it for a good, looong time will do just the trick! Anyway, everybody...take care! I will be sure to post an ASSLOAD of pics when I get home. LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE --Shauna Current Mood: excited (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, July 21st, 2006
1:08 am	Special thanks to Neall. <3 Current Mood: lonely (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 19th, 2006
11:45 pm	Wow So I went to the beach (at Batchawana) today with my parents, puppy, brother and brother's girlfriend. It was definitely some good times. I went swimming for the first time since I went camping with everybody at Pancake last summer (i think that was the last time...memorieeees..) Water was lovely and full of fun waves. I did, however, manage to burn the ever-loving PISS out of myself. All in a vain attempt to tan a little (well, more like EVEN OUT my ghetto farmer tan) before i go to italy. So now my precious milky white thighs (ha!) are singed and lobster-red and I have to sit in a very undignified spread-eagle position whilst I lather them up with cooling lotion. (oh god i'm so fucking sexy) I also burned a large oval on my back thanks to my bathing suit as well as a pair of permanent straps on my shoulders. Afterwards, I went out on a lovely date with my friend Kara...(who just bought a new car! GOOD FOR YOU KARA! <3)...for dinner at UBetcha followed by a viewing of Pirates of the Caribbean. It was a lot better than I was expecting! I don't get why I've heard so many crappy reviews all over the place? But anyway, going to the movies and seeing hot hot Johnny Depp didn't really help my whole current man-obsession! dammit all! The next boy I start dating is going to be very VERY lucky. some days I really want to be a homewrecker.... a homewrecker with a heart of gold. Current Mood: tired (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 16th, 2006
12:26 am	yay! I'm finished work now! Hooray! And it's less than 2 weeks until a hopefully life-changing experience! Double hooray! And someone wonderful has juuuust peeked back into my life. Triple hooray! (no, it's not THAT huge, but it's enough to make me smile.) Current Mood: chipper (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, July 7th, 2006
10:50 pm	medicated drama queen: picture perfect numb belligerence The good news folks? I'm basically over it. Don't know what changed, but I kind of woke up today and just didn't give a damn anymore! I knew it would kind of happen like this. Day after day it felt better and better, then all of a sudden--after much talking with friends--I wake up and I'm back to my old self again: happy, excited, and feeling free of dead weight. Actually, I think I'd like to thank Paul. He brought up something hurtful from the past last night, and while it suuuucked for an hour or two, it also reminded me of exactly why I dumped him and seemed to give my brain the reality check it needed! (Also thank you a billion times to everyone who listened to me annoyingly go over it/try to work it out over and over again.) And then tonight, I saw his MSN name (still haven't deleted it because i've been too curious) and it's: "going to madisons and getting DRRRRUUUUNNNKKKK--and maybe stoned and if you don't like it then hey, fuck you" Now, geeze. Who else on his entire friend's list has made it known time and time again that she didn't like him getting high? *think harrrrrd folks* (haha!) So I'm guessing that, yeah, he's pissed/hurt and like 'rebelling' or something. Too bad I don't feel upset or angry about it. Just alternating between indifference and feeling kind of smug...It's sadly funny because it's EXACTLY what I knew he'd do, eventually: run back to his old stand-by crutches. It's so typical of him and it just confirms what I'd always worried about when we were together. i guess it's just sad and disappointing that he's throwing everything away with both hands. But, oh well...his loss for sure! And I'm certainly not his keeper! (never was, in fact.) And there's that vicious little part of me urging him to become/stay a lying loser|stoner|skid working at a call centre for the rest of his greeeasy 'gettin' fat' days. oops. there's a little of that not-so-latent anger. But in ANY event....I have exactly ONE WEEK left of work!! That means only THREE (3) WEEKS UNTIL ITALYYYYY!! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! ( Boring Appropriate Song Lyrics ) Current Mood: amused Current Music: The Outsider - APC (10 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 4th, 2006
1:09 am	yup! heehee. another great day off not doing too much. i get to go shopping tomorrow which is exciting. things are generally looking up! almost done working! (july 14th can't come fast enough!) blah blah blah. can't wait for my Marvelous Mail to come! sorry, i just felt like updating..nothing too exciting to report. Maybe I'll take some pics tomorrow to post. Comics from http://www.sinfest.net/ Current Mood: contemplative (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 2nd, 2006
11:02 pm	Much better Guess wha--at? I bought a brand-spanking new camera today to take to Italy! HOORAY!! It takes movies and everything. I CANNOT waaaait to go! Aside from being a bit bored, I felt beautiful today. Current Mood: cheerful (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 6th, 2006
11:32 pm	ok ok ok...i've been incredibly busy and tired balancing work and puppy, but i need to let you all know that marley is the most adorable thing in the whole world, PERIOD. i love her to little bits. sure, she makes messes. sure she gets into pretty much everything there is to get in to...but, dammit, she's exactly what i wanted. So here's a couple pictures. I get to spend the whole day alone with her tomorrow, so I'll try to get some more. ( Cuddly Dog Shots ) This is so sad. The first night of my 2 days off and I fell asleep by 9:30. I don't have a social life. Someone save me. Current Mood: content (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 24th, 2006
4:51 pm	Ok, I know I haven't updated in awhile... ...but this update will make up for my tardiness. I present to all of you: MY (soon-to-be) NEW PUPPY, Marley! Eeeeeeeeeee! As most of you know, (I'm batshit crazy for fuzzy animals) I have been bugging my parents to get a new puppy for about a year now. After I was finished exams, and bopped back to the Soo, it took me less than 12 hours of consistent bugging to finally get my dad (who has been the real stickler about this whole puppy situation) to cave in! The result? My darling Marley, who will be arriving home to me on June 3rd! She was born over the Easter weekend, so she'll be about 7 weeks old when she comes home. So here, I present to you, a choice selection of Marley pictures! (she's the lighter coloured, fatter one) ( Cuteness Ahoy! ) So, as you can probably tell, I'm completely excited for the new bundle of joy to arrive and for the ensuing mischief, slobber, and kisses! <3 Hope everything is well with you guys. I miss you alllll! Current Mood: happy (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 8th, 2006
11:37 pm	-=-Tiny Update-=- i live! and apparently i'm bad at this LJ upkeep thing. Well...I have a couple days off Wed/Thurs...I'll try to update better then! <3 Miss you guys. :( (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 13th, 2006
1:02 am	Am I a spoiled brat? I totally ripped this off from beforethecrash. APPARENTLY i've been ripping off a LOT lately. ::eye roll:: I shall explain later. ( Read more... ) SWEET. I'm not THAT spoiled. Well...maybe I'm not spoiled with material goods,(according to this quiz...i know i am though) but I am spoiled with loving and supportive family and friends. <3 Current Mood: anxious (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, April 10th, 2006
9:08 pm	this is kind of fun From Wikipedia, suggested by Almasy and Nep: Three years, two births and one death on your birthday, using Wikipedia: November 9: ...events... *1494 - Family de' Medici become rulers of Florence. *1888 - Jack the Ripper kills Mary Jane Kelly, his last known victim. *1997 - The infamous Montreal Screwjob occurs in the WWF. (definitely an important event in history. haha) ...births... *1972 - Corin Tucker, American singer (Sleater-Kinney) *1978 - Sisqó, American actor and singer (Dru Hill) ...deaths... *1778 - Giovanni Battista Piranesi, Italian artist Current Mood: blah (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 9th, 2006
1:18 am	Attention world: my roommate Joanne Bagshaw is a self-righteous fucking bitch. we were talking about vegetarians (something on tv sparked it) and we got on to the topic of, you know, the slaughter of animals and things like that and how there are cruel practices, etc etc... (the whole time Joanne's all like "whatever! i like meat. blah blah blah" and bitching stupidly about how vegetarian lifestyles aren't really better in any way than meat-eating lifestyles and just generally bashing everything about it...OH! Including that we shouldn't be worried at all about the waste of land due to meat production because it's "who cares? it's not a problem in Canada like it is for other parts of the world") then deb was telling a story about how she will never eat duck because she once saw a family of ducks get hit by a car, and joanne mentioned that her boyfriend once hit a cat with his car. so we were all like "aw, that's extra horrible because it's someone's pet" and she was like "no it wasn't. not out in the country" (which is retarded, because cats don't just naturally occur out in the canadian countryside, but apparently joanne's pretty retarded) and THEN joanne blurts out this story about how when the barncats had too many kittens her grandfather, who owned the farm, would put them all in a sack and throw them in a river! So i told her that that was fucking disgusting (i know that people have been known to do that, but that doesn't make it any less fucking sick)...and she called me naive and "what ELSE are you supposed to do with them?" and i was like, "oh, I DON'T KNOW! how about take them to the humane society??" and she was like "oh, what, so they could get put down?" so i snapped at her and started yelling at her about how throwing a bunch of cats into a sack and DROWNING them is NOT a humane way for them to die, and if they WERE going to die anyway (which isn't necessarily the case if you take them to the humane society) killing them by drowning is OBVIOUSLY NOT the fair way to do it and not to EVEN TRY justifying it as right!! i started walking away and she was like "WOAHHHH!! HOOOLY!!" all laughing and shit. I'm sorry, but if YOU have the cats, and YOU don't spay or neuter them, it's YOUR responsibility to take care of those animals, whether they're housecats or barncats. it is NOT responsible or humane to just kill them because they're "inconvenient" and BESIDES, if they're on a farm, they're barn cats: You don't even have to do all that much to support them. And ANYWAY, driving in to town to give them a chance to live isn't going to fucking kill you. i sort of want to go out there and yell at her some more and tell her that it's people like her and her family with their "don't care for anything but myself" consumerist attitude that makes the world so shitty god, it just sickens me so much and the fact that she condones it. Although, in a sad way, I'm not surprised because that's just the way she is. it was just the way that told the story...as if she was contributing something good to the conversation or like she was proud of it...that made me literally feel sick to my stomach. I mean, this is the same girl that said that "black people can't swim" and that "all gay people talk the same way" as well as many other little NUGGETS OF WISDOM. Fuck, I can't wait to never have to see her self-absorbed fucking face again. What a stupid ignorant bitch. Current Mood: angry (10 Comments |Comment on this)